[tris]

Sep. 24th, 2018 05:11 pm
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She glances up to see the SUV coming toward her in a flash of silver, and the horn blares, and then everything goes into slow, strange focus.

It's not exactly her life flashing before her eyes. There have certainly been other moments that were a little more like that in Blue's 21 years of existence. It's more like an outside-herself, extended this is going to be bad in the milliseconds of time between the horn filling her ears, the squeal of brakes, and the crunch of metal on metal.

She lays on the pavement for a moment, letting the breath back into her lungs, and then it registers that the guy is actually yelling at her, yelling at her for hitting her, and Blue scrambles up in the middle of the intersection to flick him off with both hands, screaming, "I had the right of way and it's a zebra crossing, asshole," while blood streams down her arms and soaks through her jeans. He's yelling back about having a green light. None of it makes any sense.

Then, down the street, there's another screech of wheels and a smash, and they all shut up, unsettled and not sure what's going on. The sound of car horns makes her stomach drop, unmoored as though she's gone flying again.

Blue yanks her bike free in favor of keeping moving rather than letting herself process how sick she feels. Its rear tire is hopelessly bent out of shape, like a balloon someone had just let sit. She shakes off the offers of help and people touching her. She just needs to get someplace quiet and closer and safe.

That turns out to be Tris's place. She feels stupid, but apparently bloody and walking a crushed bike is weird enough to let in the apartment, and she knocks on the door with the side of her hand and leans her forehead against it.

Date: 2018-12-31 12:36 am (UTC)
priordivergence: (Intimate)
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There's a second where I consider falling backward and letting Blue collapse on top of me before remembering why we can't. I know Blue said she won't break and I believe that she won't but that doesn't mean she doesn't deserve to be handled carefully, gently. No matter the angle we look at it, her day hasn't been easy, so I let her press me to the edge of the bed and then I sit down slowly, giving her plenty of space to join me, to hold one another.

Her question makes me laugh, a light giggle that hardly sounds like me, even though I'm sure Blue has made me laugh like that before.

The question of being her girlfriend seems both weighty and obvious at the same time and I second-guess myself before nodding. "I'd like to be your girlfriend."

Date: 2019-01-03 01:30 am (UTC)
priordivergence: (The sweetest thing)
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Blue fits perfectly against me and I briefly rest the crown of my head on top of hers before letting her scoot away. I'm already halfway to joining her when she asks me to come over and I grin. It's easy to get comfortable, rest my head on my pillow and drape my arm across her.

"Does that mean you're my girlfriend?"

Date: 2019-01-06 05:59 am (UTC)
priordivergence: (Look Striking)
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As a child, I never had a sleepover. My only knowledge of them is from the occasional Darrow TV show and I have no idea how the real thing measures up but there's an element of it here. I feel light and easy, despite the weight of the confessions we've made, ready to kiss and laugh and relax until Blue's skin hurts a little less.

"I wouldn't have asked if I didn't want that," I point out, letting myself smile. "But I'm kind of new at this."

Date: 2019-01-20 05:42 am (UTC)
priordivergence: (Half-smile)
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"At being your girlfriend," I say. "But also at having anyone for a girlfriend." Much less someone like Blue as my first. She's so important to me as a friend already that I don't want to screw things up romantically. The way things have been in Darrow, at this point I've slept with more people than I've loved and, maybe, I should be ashamed of that but right now, it's simply a ratio.

I could love Blue.

"My track record isn't exactly much better," I point out. "I'm...okay with learning on my feet."

Date: 2019-01-22 03:58 am (UTC)
priordivergence: (Exhaustion)
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Blue smiles and I feel my own face echoing her expression. Safety, affection, desire. I understand those things and now that Blue says them in connection with me, I don't know how I never realized I could find them in her too. My stomach flutters in a way I'm no longer used to and I can't help nudging forward on the bed until we're as close as we can be and still be two separate people. "I don't know what I'm doing," I say again. "But I like the idea of figuring it out with you."

I kiss her and drape a hand across her waist and decide that the only thing to do is be close to her.

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