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blue ([personal profile] formicine) wrote2019-08-30 06:14 pm
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[for kat]

Blue has never been much for birthday parties. This year, thinking about who she'd even invite if she had one just seems like a recipe for throwing a notebook at the wall or crying in the kitchen, but it also seems like a year to celebrate making it through -- for Kat, too, honestly. With a few weeks left before school starts, weather muggy but getting cooler and breezy, it seems like a good time to just relax.

She'd texted Kat as the birthday girl, i have decreed that we're treating ourselves with a picture of a couple bottles of rose she'd then brought home, and every intent to order absolute trash food and the most ridiculous that Filmfix has to offer and get cuddles.
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[personal profile] swerved 2019-10-27 04:41 am (UTC)(link)
"Laura Dern and Stevie Nicks doesn't sound half-bad to me," Kat says with a lopsided smile. Neither was exactly a staple of her childhood, but she's come to have serious appreciation for both. Knowing Blue, it's easy to imagine, too, something she might not have immediately guessed offhand but that makes perfect sense now that she's been told. It gives her an idea, too, her expression brightening when she thinks of it. "We should see if we can find Jurassic Park somewhere. I mean, I bet Darrow's got some weird knockoff version, but all sorts of stuff turns up sometimes. That would make for a good movie night."

As always, she's sure it will be completely unreliable, but it isn't as if they never get any media from home. It seems at least worth looking into, a nice bit of nostalgia for the two of them. Jurassic Park might not have been one of her favorites like it was Blue's, but it's still a damn good movie.
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[personal profile] swerved 2019-11-07 09:28 am (UTC)(link)
"Cretaceous Camp, holy shit," Kat says, unable to help the delighted laugh that escapes her at the thought. That probably is what it would be called, the same sort of comical, almost-but-not-quite name that applies to so much else in Darrow. She hopes they'll be able to dig up the real movie somehow, but if they can't, Darrow's inevitable knockoff is bound to be pretty hilarious. Such things usually are. "I say we find that, or whatever they're calling it, regardless. I bet it's ridiculous."

She grins at the thought, leaning back against the couch. "And if we can find any Tchaikovsky, or any good ballets, I will definitely tell you the story."
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[personal profile] swerved 2019-11-13 07:38 am (UTC)(link)
"Sure, yeah, I'll tell you," Kat says, though she's not particularly worried about that being the case. She and Blue have known each other long enough and well enough that it's hard to imagine that being an issue, or if it does seem out of line, she'd know better than to get upset over it, certain it would be well-meant. Rather than concerned, she's mostly curious just what it is that made Blue think of her and that would require such a disclaimer.

"What is it?"
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[personal profile] swerved 2019-12-08 09:43 am (UTC)(link)
Kat is quiet for a moment — not upset, and very deliberately so, but just introspective, turning that over in her head. On one hand, it probably ought to be common sense. People have had bad injuries and come back from them before. She knows herself, too, and her defeatist tendencies. With her first injury, the car accident, she was convinced without ever trying to do otherwise that her career was over and everything she'd worked for had been rendered obsolete. She thinks that is, in part, why she reacted to the second one the way she did. She'd just started to feel something resembling hopeful again, and then lost it in the span of seconds. The first, there might have been a chance she could come back from, but a second, there just couldn't be any way. She never even let herself consider it.

She's still hesitant to now, but she likes the idea, the thought behind it. "I miss it," she admits, because certainly, there can't be any harm in that. "Even though it feels like forever ago now..."

With a lopsided little smile, she adds, "And you're not out of line, I promise."
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[personal profile] swerved 2019-12-22 07:39 am (UTC)(link)
If she's honest with herself, Kat isn't actually sure what that would look like for her. Not in a super depressing way — she's moved out of that phase, at least — but just in a straightforward way. She had one thing she loved for all her life, one path she pursued. Even if she had the work done that would be needed to make it possible to dance again, she doesn't know if she could ever get back to where she was. Doing it purely as a hobby might help, but she's had such a hard time finding something she wants to do in the absence of dance, not sure what might satisfy her the same way.

Then, of course, she can't help but wonder if she's selfish for wanting that at all when so many people don't get that; they just get jobs to get by. Maybe she doesn't need a calling. It's hard, though, to go from having one to not.

"Yeah, I get you," she says, smile still in place. "I think I'll always miss it, too. No matter what happens, you know? There'll always be that... might have been."