Blue smiles and I feel my own face echoing her expression. Safety, affection, desire. I understand those things and now that Blue says them in connection with me, I don't know how I never realized I could find them in her too. My stomach flutters in a way I'm no longer used to and I can't help nudging forward on the bed until we're as close as we can be and still be two separate people. "I don't know what I'm doing," I say again. "But I like the idea of figuring it out with you."

I kiss her and drape a hand across her waist and decide that the only thing to do is be close to her.