"At being your girlfriend," I say. "But also at having anyone for a girlfriend." Much less someone like Blue as my first. She's so important to me as a friend already that I don't want to screw things up romantically. The way things have been in Darrow, at this point I've slept with more people than I've loved and, maybe, I should be ashamed of that but right now, it's simply a ratio.

I could love Blue.

"My track record isn't exactly much better," I point out. "I'm...okay with learning on my feet."