Biffy is a bit like an older brother or uncle, just from a very, very different background, and it doesn't seem untoward or strange at all to Blue for him to hug her a little longer. At least, it helps enough that if it is strange, she doesn't care. If Darrow has given her anything, anything more than the constant taking away it has done, it's the very strange experience of men she trusts, aside from the boys, who were themselves an anomaly really.
It hurts even to think about that, right now. Pawvus comes and settles in her lap like a living heating pad, and she focuses her attention on the Siamese, stroking his sleek fur and letting his loud purr sink into her bones. It squashes any impulse she has to get up and fuss, because of course you aren't allowed to unsettle a cat.
She takes a long breath. "I'm sorry," she says, "I wish you didn't. This place was Bay and Scott's, wasn't it?" She still remembers when losing Bay was the biggest, most abrupt change in her life. It certainly has shaped much of her life in Darrow, her determination to keep the cat cafe open. Right now, she can't imagine getting herself to work.
"How do you do it?" she asks, half rhetorically. "I can't -- I don't know what to do." It's not even that Blue's never experienced loss before. She's lost so many people. It's just that with Gansey (or at least, his conscious self), then Noah, now Adam and Ronan gone -- everything she thinks of as a foundation here seems to be slipping so quickly away from her no matter what she does.
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It hurts even to think about that, right now. Pawvus comes and settles in her lap like a living heating pad, and she focuses her attention on the Siamese, stroking his sleek fur and letting his loud purr sink into her bones. It squashes any impulse she has to get up and fuss, because of course you aren't allowed to unsettle a cat.
She takes a long breath. "I'm sorry," she says, "I wish you didn't. This place was Bay and Scott's, wasn't it?" She still remembers when losing Bay was the biggest, most abrupt change in her life. It certainly has shaped much of her life in Darrow, her determination to keep the cat cafe open. Right now, she can't imagine getting herself to work.
"How do you do it?" she asks, half rhetorically. "I can't -- I don't know what to do." It's not even that Blue's never experienced loss before. She's lost so many people. It's just that with Gansey (or at least, his conscious self), then Noah, now Adam and Ronan gone -- everything she thinks of as a foundation here seems to be slipping so quickly away from her no matter what she does.